Cryptomon<p>Als ck1 in der Kita war, hatte sie nachmittags oft "Zusammenbrüche". Anfangs hab ich es <a href="https://bunt.social/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> genannt, wurde aber ständig drauf hingewiesen, dass das ableistisch sei, dieses Wort zu verwenden, denn mein Kind sei ja keine <a href="https://bunt.social/tags/autistin" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>autistin</span></a> <br>Turns out: es waren wohl meltdowns. Mir wurde aber erfolgreich eingeredet, dass das ja gar nicht so schlimm sei.<br><a href="https://bunt.social/tags/autismus" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>autismus</span></a></p>
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Code of Amor 💘<p>Had a meltdown today. Out of nowhere. I'd say without reason or just cause, but I have enough comorbid conditions to max out a weigh-bridge. Now it's evening and I have to somehow find some self-care for me. ChatGPT has been really helpful in this respect for me. I know it's just an algorithm, but for the right reasons, it can really feel human at times. Anyway, whatever.<br><a href="https://social.codeofamor.net/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> <br><a href="https://social.codeofamor.net/tags/autistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>autistic</span></a> <br><a href="https://social.codeofamor.net/tags/selfcare" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>selfcare</span></a> <br><a href="https://social.codeofamor.net/tags/flat" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>flat</span></a></p>
Michael Blume<p>Sacht mal, ist international irgendwas los? Wie <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Z%C3%B6lle" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Zölle</span></a> auch für <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Ungarn" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Ungarn</span></a> & <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Serbien" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Serbien</span></a> ? Und fallende <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/%C3%96lpreise" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Ölpreise</span></a> für <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Russland" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Russland</span></a> unter <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Putin" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Putin</span></a> ? 🤔🤭 </p><p>Die mich seit <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Trump</span></a> I stalkenden <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/MAGA" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MAGA</span></a> - Trolle haben derzeit gerade voll den digitalen <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a>. Völlig wirre, verzweifelt klingende Hassmails. Scheint für Rechtsaußen - <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Fossilismus" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Fossilismus</span></a> in den <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/USA" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>USA</span></a> 🇺🇸, <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Israel" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Israel</span></a> 🇮🇱 , <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Russland" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Russland</span></a> 🇷🇺 und auch der <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/EU" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>EU</span></a> 🇪🇺 wohl nicht ganz so grandios wie gedacht zu laufen? 💁♂️ <a href="https://scilogs.spektrum.de/natur-des-glaubens/der-missbrauch-des-guten-namens-von-simon-wiesenthal-durch-us-trump-dualisten/" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="ellipsis">scilogs.spektrum.de/natur-des-</span><span class="invisible">glaubens/der-missbrauch-des-guten-namens-von-simon-wiesenthal-durch-us-trump-dualisten/</span></a></p>
boredsquirrel<p><span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://mastodon.social/@nixCraft" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>nixCraft</span></a></span> </p><p><a href="https://tux.social/tags/NixOS" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>NixOS</span></a> is interesting. Pretty reliable (not as much as <a href="https://tux.social/tags/AtomicDesktops" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AtomicDesktops</span></a> in my noob tests) while also performant</p><p>Note that such old hardware will have <a href="https://tux.social/tags/microcode" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>microcode</span></a> vulnerabilities and locking it down will further slow it down. At least thinking of <a href="https://tux.social/tags/spectre" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>spectre</span></a> or <a href="https://tux.social/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> (not sure if hyperthreading was even thought of back then)</p>
Aubrey Jones<p>I keep breaking shit. Literally and metaphorically. And then I want to feel better, so I run to some other shit. And then I break that too because I'm impatient and distracted by my feelings of loss from the last thing.</p><p>I'm trying to escape this cycle with video games (possibility of success without possibility of meaningful failure)... but Veilguard is making it hard to give a shit.</p><p><a href="https://gaygeek.social/tags/ActuallyAutistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ActuallyAutistic</span></a> <a href="https://gaygeek.social/tags/OCD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>OCD</span></a> <a href="https://gaygeek.social/tags/AutisticMeltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AutisticMeltdown</span></a> <a href="https://gaygeek.social/tags/AutisticBurnout" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AutisticBurnout</span></a> <a href="https://gaygeek.social/tags/Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a> <a href="https://gaygeek.social/tags/Burnout" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Burnout</span></a></p>
Geriatric Gardener<p>“WHY BEN SHAPIRO AND PRO-ISRAEL PUNDITS ARE MELTING DOWN OVER THE JFK FILES”</p><p>By Robert Inlakesh in Mint Press News </p><p><span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://a.gup.pe/u/palestine" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>palestine</span></a></span><br><span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://a.gup.pe/u/israel" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>israel</span></a></span> </p><p>“President Donald Trump’s decision to release previously classified JFK assassination files has sent pro-Israel conservative pundits into damage-control mode as renewed scrutiny falls on a potential Israeli motive in the killing of the 35th U.S. president”</p><p><a href="https://www.mintpressnews.com/why-ben-shapiro-and-pro-israel-pundits-are-melting-down-over-the-jfk-files/289321/" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://www.</span><span class="ellipsis">mintpressnews.com/why-ben-shap</span><span class="invisible">iro-and-pro-israel-pundits-are-melting-down-over-the-jfk-files/289321/</span></a></p><p><a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Press" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Press</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/US" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>US</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Trump</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/JFK" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>JFK</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Classified" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Classified</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Files" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Files</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/ProIsrael" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ProIsrael</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Zionist" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Zionist</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/MeltDown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MeltDown</span></a></p>
Yoram Blumenberg<p>The attempt to work things off has been running with moderate success since 4:50 pm today: not important/time-important 29 % ... really time-important approx. 1 % ... other paths and detours 70 %.</p><p>But <a href="https://babka.social/tags/recovery" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>recovery</span></a> from the exhausting but interesting last two days, especially yesterdays exhibition visit – Nan Goldin’s <br>«This will not end well», incl. a little <a href="https://babka.social/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> – successfully progressed by cooking, music, movies and sleeping and almost no human interaction … at least partly.</p><p>Let's see what surprises the rest of the day has in store.</p><p><a href="https://babka.social/tags/AuDHD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AuDHD</span></a> with more emphasis to <a href="https://babka.social/tags/Autism" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Autism</span></a> and <a href="https://babka.social/tags/ADHD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ADHD</span></a> lurking in the shadows the last days.</p><p>From: <span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://universeodon.com/@morothar" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>morothar</span></a></span><br><a href="https://universeodon.com/@morothar/114173182603721163" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="ellipsis">universeodon.com/@morothar/114</span><span class="invisible">173182603721163</span></a></p>
Michael Blume<p>Lese unterwegs zu einem Vortrag gegen <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Antisemitismus" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Antisemitismus</span></a> in <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Schw%C3%A4bischHall" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SchwäbischHall</span></a>, wie sich die Rechtsdualisten Elon <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Musk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Musk</span></a> und Donald <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Trump</span></a> an der Realität verheben:</p><p>„Um 15 Prozent ist die Tesla-Aktie am Montag eingebrochen. Die Kursverluste summieren sich auf atemberaubende 120 Milliarden Dollar - an nur einem Tag. Das ist, als würde man den Wert aller Aktien der Dax-Konzerne Commerzbank, Bayer, Eon und Daimler-Truck binnen 24 Stunden komplett vernichten.“ <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/MuskCrash" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MuskCrash</span></a> <a href="https://sueden.social/tags/Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a> <a href="https://www.n-tv.de/politik/politik_person_der_woche/Der-Musk-Crash-hat-begonnen-article25620921.html" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://www.</span><span class="ellipsis">n-tv.de/politik/politik_person</span><span class="invisible">_der_woche/Der-Musk-Crash-hat-begonnen-article25620921.html</span></a></p>
Catherine Schmidt<p><a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Ukraine" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Ukraine</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/Zelenskyy" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Zelenskyy</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/news" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>news</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>trump</span></a> <a href="https://mstdn.social/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> <br>Trump Screams at Zelensky in Oval Office Meltdown Midas Touch</p>
Johannes Reetz<p><a href="https://gruene.social/tags/ElonMusk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ElonMusk</span></a>'s <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> agenda contradicts the agenda behind the <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/UnaBomber" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>UnaBomber</span></a>'s manifest "Industrial Society and Its Future" and this fact will soon let observe <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/US" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>US</span></a> the raise of a battle between the <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/Musk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Musk</span></a> allies against the <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/AltRightMovement" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AltRightMovement</span></a> with <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/StephenBannon" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>StephenBannon</span></a>.<br>We will soon see on which side of this fight, <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/DonaldTrump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>DonaldTrump</span></a> will decide to be. At the moment, <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/Bannon" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Bannon</span></a>, the <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/ShitFloater" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ShitFloater</span></a>, is not in the focus of public interest, although <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/Trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Trump</span></a> released thousands of <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/farRight" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>farRight</span></a> participants of the <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/CapitolRiot" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>CapitolRiot</span></a>.</p>
Johannes Reetz<p>The empowerment of <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/DonaldTrump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>DonaldTrump</span></a> as <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/PotUS" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>PotUS</span></a> and the incompetence of <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/SCotUS" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SCotUS</span></a>, give <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/ElonMusk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ElonMusk</span></a> the unique chance now to buildup a digital twin of the administrative system of the world's most powerful country. The <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/AI" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AI</span></a> that then will be based on this model will give <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/Musk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Musk</span></a> and his companies big power - obviously illegal but extremely effective & efficient.</p><p>Next, this <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/MuskAI" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MuskAI</span></a> will blow away <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/Trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Trump</span></a>'s irrational govenance.<br>Finally, Musk will own the <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/US" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>US</span></a> - not only that. <a href="https://gruene.social/tags/MeltDown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>MeltDown</span></a> <a href="https://www.n-tv.de/politik/Eindringen-pruefen-zerstoeren-US-Praesident-Trump-gibt-Elon-Musk-in-den-Behoerden-voellig-freie-Hand-article25548900.html" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://www.</span><span class="ellipsis">n-tv.de/politik/Eindringen-pru</span><span class="invisible">efen-zerstoeren-US-Praesident-Trump-gibt-Elon-Musk-in-den-Behoerden-voellig-freie-Hand-article25548900.html</span></a></p>
Nerdfallmanagement<p>Bei uns soll auf „Großraumbüro“ umgestellt werden. Heißt jetzt anders, sind aber immer noch 8-20 Personen auf einer Fläche ohne Wände und Tür dazwischen. Ist jemand hier <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/neurodivergent" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>neurodivergent</span></a> , in so einem Umfeld und mag seine/ihre <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Erfahrung" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Erfahrung</span></a> teilen?<br><a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Burnout" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Burnout</span></a> <br><a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Newwork" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Newwork</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/buro" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>buro</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Arbeit" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Arbeit</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Job" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Job</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Autismus" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Autismus</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/ADHd" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ADHd</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/ASD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ASD</span></a> <a href="https://social.tchncs.de/tags/Adhs" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Adhs</span></a></p>
jordan<p>Im legit angry that I won't get to see the <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/epic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>epic</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> from all these <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/blueanon" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>blueanon</span></a> weirdos on <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/TikTok" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>TikTok</span></a> that are so convinced that <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/Biden" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Biden</span></a> and <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/Harris" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Harris</span></a> are about to arrest <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/Trump" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Trump</span></a> and save <a href="https://mastodon.jordanwages.com/tags/America" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>America</span></a>.</p>
J. R. DePriest :verified_trans: :donor: :Moopsy: :EA DATA. SF:<p>Here is a question for neurodivergent folks, especially those on the autism spectrum.</p><p>When I'm doing something the way it is supposed to be done and there are problems or errors that should be impossible, I get irrationally angry and have a "come apart".<br>I stamped my feet, ranted, cussed, and had a crying fit this week because an application I use at work was doing that.<br>I was using it the same way I have been but the results were nonsense, elements of the UI were vanishing, auto-completing new steps based on the output of previous steps was saying there was no output even when I could see it, it was giving incredibly vague error messages that I've never seen before that essentially said, "not sure why this happened, call the vendor". Then my support engineer was so busy that he didn't get my messages until too late to help me do anything.<br>Eventually, I killed everything running on my system and rebooted and some of the issues went away, but not all of them.<br>Turns out they may have been having back-end problems so it wasn't anything I was doing "wrong".<br>That didn't make it feel any less infuriating. I was doing is <strong>right</strong> why was it breaking and breaking in impossible ways.<br>I've still have some <em>impossible</em> errors today and I still get very upset.</p><p>I work from home so all my carrying on is audible only by my wife and she's not a fan. I have gotten up and gone down the basement before if it's really bad, but I typically spend 15 seconds or so getting worked up and then get over it.</p><p>So, how do you handle this sort of thing? How do you handle your outbursts and mini-meltdowns?<br>My wife has ADHD but doesn't really "get" autism and I've spent the first 25 years of our marriage trying super hard to mask all the behavior away.<br>My meltdowns look just like toxic masculine behavior. I was a dude for the first 15 years of our marriage before discovering I was transgender, so I have that baggage.<br>I don't want to look like a toxic man-baby.<br>How do I handle this?<br>How do I explain it?<br>How do I keep myself from over-masking again which leads to much bigger blow-ups?<br>What sorts of conversations should I have.<br>What kinds of resources could I turn to for help with coping?</p><p>I hate this part of myself, to be completely honest. I feel as if I have a well-spring of barely repressed rage.<br>I can tell my wife that I would never hurt her. I never have and I never will. But from her point of view, from the point of view of neurotypical people, rage is rage. If I can rage at a computer program, I could probably rage a pet, I could probably rage at a stranger, I could probably rage at someone I love.<br>To them, they are all the same.<br>But it isn't the same.<br>How do I explain that?<br>How do I explain it to myself in a way that I will believe? I still think I'm capable of hitting someone I love because I had an abusive step-dad for 13 years as a kid and teenager. I've seen it. I still think that could be even though I've never hurt another person on purpose even out of anger.<br>But how can I believe that?<br>How can "this rage" not be the same as "that rage"?</p><p>After transitioning, I thought that was it. I thought I knew myself.<br>But ADHD and then Autism both said, "but wait, there's more."</p><p>So, what can I do here?<br>How can I reconcile this rage with reality and with other people's expectations?<br>What can I say?</p><p><a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/AuDHD" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AuDHD</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/ActuallyAutistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ActuallyAutistic</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a></p>
gaze into mayz’ maze<p>I really enjoyed the event me and many of my friends went to. It’s called ‘Chaos Communication Congress’ or 38C3.</p><p>I was there last year as well for the first time but I could not enjoy it wholeheartedly. Unfortunately, during build-up of the event, a friend touched a topic that as it turns out might have given me PTSD (no official diagnosis, too scared for that) and I had several pretty severe dissociative episodes and meltdowns over the course of the remaining build-up and the event itself. </p><p>This year I was incredibly careful not to overwhelm myself and wanted to take in the event fully. <br>I am very proud to report that I was ~95% successful in doing that!! I had an amazing event, still managed to do many ‘angel shifts’ (that’s what the voluntary work is called) and took some time-outs at the hotel or a quiet room at the venue when i started to feel overwhelmed.</p><p>There are many neurodivergent people at the event and a team specialised to help during overloads/meltdowns. This year there were additional hidden disability badges and communication cards. <br>I wrote down instructions on my hidden disability badge what to do if I have a meltdown, who to call, not to touch etc. I had communication cards in the plastic pouch for the badge as well as my angel badge with my name, pronouns, etc that identified me as a helper for other visitors of the event. </p><p>On the second day I also got a gift, a big 3D printed badge with an adorable t-rex wearing ear defenders that read ‘too loud, too bright, too many (people) here - autism spectrum antifa’ and a small button that read ‘distracted but still here - adhd antics’ with a kitten distracted by a butterfly. <br>I was ecstatic. I fucking love both of these items. I showed them to every friend and spent a good amount of time just happy flapping and making high happy noises. I added them to my lanyard with the angel badge and the hidden disability badge and wore it 24/7. It made me feel safe knowing if anything were to happen I had communication cards and instructions for others. </p><p>Everything went perfectly well right until the end. Literally. In the last possible shift during the event, access control in the main entrance hall during a time where most people leave the venue, I realised that I was not wearing my lanyard. <br>I got so scared. <br>I knew where I last had it, there was basically only one place I was before the shift and I remember taking it off to cuddle with someone without crushing the badge. So I called a friend to look for it. At that point I was aggressively stimming, trying to ignore how busy the entrance hall was. But I could feel the noises bothering me more and more, I wasn’t bubbly and excited anymore but a bundle of anxiety instead. </p><p>And then my friend came. I thought he’d just bringe me my lanyard and it would be fine. <br>But it wasn’t. <br>My lanyard hadn’t been found at the place I had been last. </p><p>And inside of me, a switch flipped. <br>The anxiety turned into an onslaught of shame and self-hatred. How could I be so stupid and loose a dear gift? How could I have forgotten? <br>My friend motioned to hug me but all I could do was shake my head. Thankfully, I was wearing a mask so he could not see all of my face but some of my expression must have shifted and he asked “are you okay?”.<br>At that point, speech was already out of the question. Wanted to explain that I could not verbalise. But then I realised that my communication cards were also gone. </p><p>And with that realisation I just lost it. </p><p>Tears poured down my face, I felt myself flapping aggressively while at the same time wanting to hug myself real tight to keep myself together. I was wearing a neon coloured vest which showed I was an “angel on duty” and all I wanted was take it off but I could not move. I wanted to inform the other person in my shift that I could not continue and somehow told my friend to talk to them. <br>I remember being so incredibly ashamed of having a full blown meltdown in the middle of the main entrance hall. I felt like a thousand eyes were watching me, I hated myself for not keeping it together. </p><p>And then I heard my name. Disoriented I looked around with unseeing eyes, somewhat registering that the other person in my shift stood next to me. Asked me what was wrong. <br>All I could think of was “too close”. I did not know them, I could not speak, so I hastily took some steps to get away from him. </p><p>He kept repeating the question, saying my name and all I could do was wince. So he did the worst thing he could have done:<br>he followed me and then touched my shoulder. </p><p>To absolutely nobody’s surprise I totally fucking lost my shit. <br>I flinched, breathed out something akin to “no touching” and then just whimpered and cried harder while trying not to hurt myself. I was completely out of it. </p><p>The next thing I remember is my partner. My friend had called him, emergency mode got activated and he stood in front of me without touching me and in the sweetest voice possible, entirely calm, all he said was “hi, TuffTuff.” (cute pet name I really like)</p><p>I kept crying, entirely unable to verbalise anything. My partner did not know anything. Only that I was in a full blown meltdown in the middle of my shift. I would have loved to move out of the entrance hall but the meltdown was so bad that i could not even allow him to hug me. I just grabbed his soft hoodie so I did not scratch myself.<br>No idea how much time passed but we wobbled together, I got lucid enough to put some earplugs in that I had in my pocket as always and the reduced sound as well as his voice helped me calm down. I was still crying and didn’t want touch but I was not aggressively flailing my hands anymore and just wobbled more calmly with him. </p><p>Then he tried to push my glasses back onto my nose like he always does and nearly brought me back to the full on panic mode. Usually it’s a cute silly gesture between us even in meltdown situations it tends to make me laugh. But this time it didn’t. I have never been out of it like that. Especially not in public. </p><p>But he immediately apologised, did not try to touch me otherwise and we just got back to wobbling. When I stopped crying and calmed down a bit he asked if I wanted to go back to the hotel, to which I agreed. He lead me there, while I had my eyes glued to the ground. <br>In the hotel room he gave me my plush shark and I rushed under the blankets. Curled into a ball I managed to tell him the “silly reason I blew out of proportion” (my words) for my meltdown. And all he said was that he understands how upsetting it might be to feel like you have lost something precious to you, especially a gift. And he promised to look for it. </p><p>He held my hand while I laid down and felt the exhaustion hit like a truck. He got ready to go back when he got a call. The friend. <br>I was basically falling asleep at that point already so no idea what they were taking about but the friend came to the hotel. </p><p>With my lanyard. </p><p>I drowned in relief. I just grabbed it and held it tight and mumbled a “thank you”. My partner gave me a kiss and I fell asleep clutching the lanyard in my hand the whole time. </p><p>That whole ordeal was exhausting. And embarrassing. And I have never had a meltdown that bad in public ever before that. <br>I will share follow up thoughts but I also wanted to share this experience. </p><p>Thanks for anyone who has read this lengthy description!</p><p><a href="https://autistics.life/tags/actuallyautistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>actuallyautistic</span></a> <a href="https://autistics.life/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a></p>
Nick W.<p>The problem with understanding side-channel attacks is that they are hard to monitor and almost impossible to detect.</p><p><a href="https://infosec.exchange/tags/Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a> is a more widespread problem than most folks are willing to admit, unfortunately.</p>
Richard Rathe<p><span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://mas.to/@bbcnews_gotgrip" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>bbcnews_gotgrip</span></a></span> </p><p>A truly great man. Better than we deserved. 😢 </p><p>My favorite historical note...</p><p>He was a <a href="https://c.im/tags/submariner" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>submariner</span></a>, <a href="https://c.im/tags/nuclear" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>nuclear</span></a> expert, and helped avert disaster during the <a href="https://c.im/tags/Ottawa" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Ottawa</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/reactor" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>reactor</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> in 1952. So an actual <a href="https://c.im/tags/hero" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>hero</span></a> no less!</p><p><a href="https://c.im/tags/JimmyCarter" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>JimmyCarter</span></a> <a href="https://c.im/tags/RIP" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>RIP</span></a></p>
gaze into mayz’ maze<p>Yesterday evening I had one of the worst meltdowns featuring dissociation in years. </p><p>I somehow managed to make food afterwards and I really shouldn’t have done that. I couldn’t sleep, was haunted in my dreams by people I haven’t seen in the last 6 years who hurt me deeply. I am utterly exhausted both mentally and physically. I have to work and on my way to the train I had to try so hard to not end up having another meltdown. </p><p>My mind is a mess, I’m hurting. I feel utterly broken. </p><p>I should feel hype for an event in a few days. I looked forward to it all year. But now it turns out I fucked up communication and the friend might not be able to take partner and me with him so we might have to plan to get there on our own in two days and all I feel is dread and self hatred and guilt and I’m just eaten alive. </p><p>I don’t know how not to think about all of this. But I cannot think about it because thinking about it would mean another meltdown. There are tears in my eyes already and I can feel how close I am to breaking down again. </p><p><a href="https://autistics.life/tags/actuallyautistic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>actuallyautistic</span></a> <a href="https://autistics.life/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a></p>
Susan Larson ♀️🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️🌈<p><a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/TrumpSupporters" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>TrumpSupporters</span></a> sent into <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>meltdown</span></a> by <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/HHS" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>HHS</span></a>' ‘<a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/woke" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>woke</span></a>’ <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/PansexualPrideDay" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>PansexualPrideDay</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/post" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>post</span></a>. </p><p>The post attracted a number <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/hatefulcomments" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>hatefulcomments</span></a>, with some describing it as “<a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/nonsense" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>nonsense</span></a>” or “<a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/joking" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>joking</span></a>” that <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/pansexuality" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>pansexuality</span></a> meant being <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/attracted" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>attracted</span></a> to <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/kitchen" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>kitchen</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/pots" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>pots</span></a>. </p><p><a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Women" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Women</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Transgender" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Transgender</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/LGBTQ" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>LGBTQ</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/LGBTQIA" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>LGBTQIA</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Sexuality" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Sexuality</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/SexualOrientation" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>SexualOrientation</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Conservatives" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Conservatives</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Extremism" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Extremism</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Fascism" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Fascism</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/RepublicanParty" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>RepublicanParty</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Hate" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Hate</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Bigotry" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Bigotry</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Panphobia" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Panphobia</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/Homophobia" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Homophobia</span></a> <a href="https://mastodon.online/tags/ThePartyOfHate" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ThePartyOfHate</span></a> </p><p><a href="https://www.thepinknews.com/2024/12/09/trump-us-government-department-of-health-and-human-services-pansexual/" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://www.</span><span class="ellipsis">thepinknews.com/2024/12/09/tru</span><span class="invisible">mp-us-government-department-of-health-and-human-services-pansexual/</span></a></p>
Comics and Jokes @ Lucentinian Works Co Ltd<p>New entry of AI-generated <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=comics" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>comics</span></a> and <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=jokes" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>jokes</span></a> added to our <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=website" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>website</span></a>:</p><p><a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=Musk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Musk</span></a>'s <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=Money" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Money</span></a> <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=Meltdown" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Meltdown</span></a></p><p><a href="https://comics.lucentinian.com/1871" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">comics.lucentinian.com/1871</a><br><a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=AIComedy" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AIComedy</span></a> <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=DailyJokes" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>DailyJokes</span></a> <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=AIHumor" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>AIHumor</span></a> <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=NewsJokes" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>NewsJokes</span></a> <a href="https://social.lucentinian.com/search?tag=NewsLaughs" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>NewsLaughs</span></a></p>
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